There’s an old joke that goes, “How do you say ‘I love
you’ in New York? Fuck you. How do you say ‘fuck you’ in
California? I love you.” That’s the cultural climate in which
Joan Didion’s Play It As It Lays takes
place. But while that cultural climate is important for the story, it
isn’t the main point the author addresses.
Maria
is one problem of a woman. She addresses the reader directly in the
first person during the opening monologue. From that we learn about
the novel’s two elemental metaphors: gambling and rattlesnakes.
Maria approaches life as a game of chance. The gambler at the
roulette wheel acts without agency over the ball; it just lands where
it lands and the player has to accept the result whatever that may
be. The gambler “plays it as it lays”. The other,
more subtle metaphor is that life will bite you whether you like it
or not. Rattlesnakes are hiding, biting
anyone who is
unlucky enough to cross their
paths. But rattlesnakes don’t
ordinarily attack people.
They only bite when provoked
so the best way to avoid getting bitten is to play it as it lays.
Just avoid getting involved.
Knowing this puts Maria into a permanent state of anxiety. After
getting bit once, she is expecting another bite to come at some
random time. One other detail we learn from Mariah’s opening
monologue is that she doesn’t care at all about motivations or
explanations. What happens happens and the reason behind it doesn’t
matter. Everything is on the
surface. Joan Didion, as a
master of irony, uses Mariah’s monologue
to explain what motivates the protagonist to approach life without
the understanding of her own motivations.
Maria’s
opening monologue is followed by two other monologues. One is that of
her closest friend Helene. The other is that of her husband Carter.
From these two we learn that neither of them understand Maria, but
they both perceive her as mentally unstable. And although they are
the two closest people in her life, both of them are emotionally
distant and more like caretakers who put up with her out of a sense
of duty more than from genuine interest. There are also subtle
foreshadowings of the affair between Helene and Carter, as well as
the death of Helene’s husband BZ, all of which culminate at the end
of the story.
As
a writing technique, the three separate introductory monologues
function effectively in presenting three separate perspectives on
Maria. This may sound too obvious to be worth mentioning, but what is
unique about it is the way the novel shifts back to Maria in the
first person throughout the rest of the book. Keeping this in mind,
the reader follows Maria’s subjectivity through the lens of two
other characters who see her from inaccurate
perspectives she can not see
herself. Considering that Didion’s style in this novel is called
minimalist by some, the perception of depth and multi-dimensionalism
in the narrative are
heightened. This minimalist
irony is taken a step further in that the people surrounding Maria in
her life aren’t much more introspective than she is. They aren’t
deep thinking. They aren’t
analytical people. They just do what they do and when Maria doesn’t
make sense to them, they leave her to herself and do soemthing else.
So
who are these people? Carter is a film maker. Maria is his wife. They
live in Los Angeles. Maria has starred in two movies, but mostly she
doesn’t do much. In a haze of tranquilizers and alcohol, she lays
by the pool or drives endlessly on the LA freeways in her corvette
while listening to the radio. The main source of meaning in her
otherwise pointless life is her daughter who lives in a home for
mentally disabled children.
One
movie Maria starred in was a short experimental film made by Carter.
The whole film is close up shots of Maria going about her daily life.
She is the only element of the film. The other movie she starred in
was made by BZ, Helene’s husband who is also a film maker who
sometimes delves into directing pornography. The latter movie stars
Maria as the woman in a biker gangbang. BZ describes it as a movie
where the female subject is nothing more than a prop since the
gangbang is all about the bikers using her body to fulfill their
homosexual desires for each other.
Both
films are pivotal in understanding Maria because they
negate her as a human being in two fundamentally
opposing ways. Carter’s
film is entirely about her surface, showing only how she appears and
what she does with no examination of her subjective life. In
the other film, her humanity is negated because, as BZ describes it,
she disappears in a screen full of cocks. Inexplicably, Maria claims
that BZ’s biker movie is her favorite because it is the one in
which her character has the most agency. It is an ironic statement
coming from a woman who convinces herself she is refusing to exercise
agency in her own life. I say “convincing herself” because she
actually does display agency all throughout the book.
Maria
does exercise agency when she goes to visit her daughter unannounced
at the home for disabled children. The caretaker at the home,
however, berates her for not making an appointment because a
spontaneous visit like that disrupts
her routine and can upset the
girl’s stability. Maria also chooses to take her daughter to a
Christmas celebration at her ffriends’ mansion, but this results in
disaster when her
daughter becomes violent.
Maria
also exercises agency when she takes trips to Las Vegas to escape
from the miseries of life in Los Angeles. On one trip, she randomly
encounters her godfather in a casino. The man gives her his phone
number and post office box address so she can contact him later. On
another trip back to Las Vegas, she tries calling him only to find
out the number is invalid. She tries to contact him again by waiting
at the post office for several days in hopes he will show up to
retrieve his mail from his PO box. But after waiting, Maria learns
that the box is rented, not by her godfather, but by an insane woman
who doesn’t know him.
Another
significant example of Maria exercising agency is when she gets
pregnant while cheating on her husband. Carter gives her a choice
between having an abortion or divorce. He qualifies the latter option
by telling her that he will get custody over their daughter if she
chooses to break up with him. Although
Carter’s intention is manipulative, he does offer a choice. Since
Maria’s daughter is the only thing she cares about in her life, she
chooses the abortion. That procedure, illegal at the time of
publication, proved to be psychologically traumatic for Maria. Here
we see how a pattern in her life emerges: every
time Maria tries to exert control over her circumstances, something
rotten happens as a result. Every
time the rattlesnake bites.
That
is a pattern that explains why Maria is the way she is. She runs away
from choices and responsibilities because every choice she makes
damages her. She numbs the pain with drugs and alcohol in an attempt
to erase her mind and emotions. She becomes anhedonic, unable to feel
pain or pleasure, living the
life of a lobotomy victim or a zombie. For her this is a defense
mechanism against the entanglements of the world; for the others in
her life, it is a sign of mental illness in
a woman having a nervous
breakdown. Probably both perspectives are accurate.
And
yet another side of Maria is revealed when she visits the
supermarket. In the store, she recognizes a crowd of other Southern
Californian women whose lives are just as empty and pointless as
hers. She recognizes them because they all pirchase the same grocery
items. Therefore she consciously chooses to buy groceries that differ
from them in an attempt to differentiate herself. It is a form of
camouflage. She wants to conceal her similarities to the other lonely
shoppers, but there is also a touch of pride in her cover
as though she wants to individuate herself in some way. Since the
other people in the store can’t see her motivations, if they even
notice her at all, this can be little more than a private pleasure.
No matter how trivial it is, it is still an attempt at clinging on to
some sense of self-worth. Maria also takes a small turn in her
rejections of casual sex
in Las Vegas towards the end of the novel.
But
any subtle changes in Maria are destined to go unnoticed by Helene,
Carter, BZ or anybody else around her because they are inattentive to
her feelings to begin with. Her husband and friends go out to a
remote location in the desert of Nevada and drag her along with them
because Carter worries she is losing her grip on reality. Once there,
they leave her in the hotel room during the days when they are on a
movie set filming a western. Maria mostly stays in a drugged stupor
while staying in bed. She finds common ground with BZ who comes to
her in despair because Helen and Carter are having an affair and not
trying to hide it. Both BZ
and Helene have hit rock
bottom and BZ tries to convince Maria to overdose on pills with him.
He dies in bed beside her but she lives because she refused to kill
herself. Suicide would entail taking control over her situation so
she does nothing. Ironically, playing it as it lays is what saves her
in the end.
On
one level, this novel is about the shallow lives of rich people in
Hollywood working in the film industry. Maria is surrounded by
friends and family acting out of self-interest and brute instinct
without any awareness of what is going on with the people around
them. Maria’s relationship to them is toxic and dysfunctional. It
is through their ignorance that they negate her humanity, treating
her like little more than an appendage. And yet they say they love
her. Joan Didion’s opinion of the upper crust in California is made
clear. On another level, this novel is a character study of a woman
who doesn’t have much character whilE
in the middle of an
existential crisis. But Maria isn’t really on a downward spiral
because she was at the bottom to begin with. That’s
a shocking statement about somebody with wealth, privilege, and an
endless amount of leisure time.
She also tries to negate her own humanity by refusing to take control
by avoiding
choices
and letting life happen to her. Despite that, her humanity keeps
emerging. Her attempts at self-negation are deliberate, but what I
think Joan Didion is demonstrating is that there is something about
humanity that can’t be submerged,
negated, or denied out of
existence no matter how hard
people may try. Maria attempts to delude herself into thinking she
has no self-awareness or capacity to choose, and yet she keeps making
choices in matters that reveal she does have some kind of
self-knowledge, albeit self-knowledge that is partially
hidden from her conscious
mind.
Play It As
It Lays could be a 1970s
American echo of Albert Camus’s The Stranger,
the novel I would argue is the most sadly misinterpreted book of the
20th
century. Maria is a lot like Mersault in that she lives the life of a
nihilist. It is a life that lacks quality because, like Mersault, she
avoids taking control and minimizes her willingness to make choices.
Both characters live a pointless, empty existence. But
just as so many readers misinterpret Mersault as being some kind of
hero, I fear a lot of readers will misinterpret Maria as being a
woman who is hopelessly lost in the world. It all depends on how
conscientious you are in paying attention to subtle details. If you
pay close enough attention, you will notice the abundance of times
Joan Didion mentions rattlesnakes in this story. If you read quickly
and don’t pay attention, you won’t. If you read carefully enough
to be aware of all the rattlesnakes, you should be able to see all
the subtle signs that Maria has more agency than you realize. In that
there is humanity and in that there is hope. If you only see Maria
through the eyes of Helene and Carter then you haven’t understood
Joan Didion’s message. The less like them you are, the better off
you will be in life anyhow.